What Do You Want to Do?

It’s a frightening question.

Even when you “know what you want to do”, it’s never a definitive answer. If you asked me at age 10, it was a psychiatrist. If you asked me at age 15, it was a film producer. At age 19, it became a band promoter. Right now at age 27, I have three unrelated answers. I’m brainstorming how to connect them, but I’m not there just yet.

And you know what? That’s perfectly fine. I used to be the person who thought I needed the next decade of my life planned out. And I did. I’d slowly check each step off and feel a deep sense of accomplishment. And then I had my brush with death. One of the first things I did was shred that list. I was too stuck in a future not guaranteed, missing the present I could never get back.

The greatest joy I’ve had over the last few years is just experimenting. I say yes to a couple of projects that may or may not evolve into something more. I turn down a few activities I’d normally jump on to create time for relaxing and shaking up my normal routine. Wear something I’d never buy in the past. Grow my hair out, dye it and chop it off because it’ll still grow back at this time in my life.

We get intrigued about different career paths. Why people have a myriad of projects and jobs that get them to that ultimate “perfect position”. Here’s the secret–no one realizes it at the time. You do what you have to do to get where you want to be. And sometimes, you don’t realize where you want to be until long after you’ve been there.